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Just knowing my Self

do i need to change..

do i need change to fit for some people.. taste... or i should remain the way i am right now... because in this world you have to constantly change because everything changes....... but why change if i know i'm at my best and changing my self will only drew away  people who accepts who i am........... but is it necessary to change if you want to be with someone far from you.. someone who's gap is equivalent to the height of mount everest... if she is above I'm below... do i have to loose my fingers and my feet just to be with her..... do i have to endure the freezing everest just to be with her...... or there is nothing worth to wait for her because destiny is not just for us...  do we have to change everything to fit for someone... i wish not...

posted by: alj099 at 00:03 | link | comments |

What happened the day I was born?

January 23 1988 as I was dwell out by my mother out of her womb. Philippine has made its history when 573 out of 915 examinees past the licensure exam for the desk officer given by the professional Regulation Commission, the first Filipina nurse who past the licensure exam in New York , Carol G. Nelmida from the University of Santo Thomas and 18^th placer in the 1986 board exam. Registered as practical nurse License No. 194543-1. In this time the Filipino are already proving them selves as a very professional worker like today. It was also the time when the controversial Acienda Luicita in comply with the Executive Order No. 299 will be under the Comprehensive Agrarian Reform Program which the President Cory Aquino Stated that she is doing its part to make the dream land, productivity and dignity   for come true, but today went sour when people have masses against the unfair wage division of Aquino which had led to various protest and bloodshed and violence.

            Metro is starting to be filled with violence that day robbery suspect killed, shot dead after grabbing service fire arm at policeman during an investigation in Parañaque, even hijacking of a truck loaded with 100 bags of chicken feeds and other products worth 140,00 on Maharlika Highway.

            There were also incident of fire, a three hour fire in Bf homes cause by faulty wirings destroyed at least five commercial establishments at estimated 20 million pesos, destroying a gymnasium, school and a drugstore.

            In that time also the world was in a tragedy when 4 foreigner face firing for corrupting $4 million in cattle Freud. Peru Senator Luis Felipe de las Coisas a combative 71 year old member of aprista party collapsed and died at the end of a fiery speech in support of the nationalization  of Peruvian bank. Also a horrible day for Mexico when a train carrying 500 passenger derailed in the north western Mexico killing at least 10 people.  But not all was tragedy this day also the name Tyson a legend in boxing  has making his name to stardom as he fights Holmes at Atlantic City New Jersey Larry Holmes will try to regain the heavy weight title he held for seven years when he challenge Champion Mike Tyson  which was in that time was the most dangerous fighter in the world boxing. In my birthday history was made also tragedy happened which today some of it has been base to some historical events and events that has continually change our live as of today.

 

posted by: alj099 at 00:39 | link | comments |

i lost another bestfriend

heheh la lang after a cruel day last monday after loosing my 2g usb i felt like i wanna die
for IT people USB is a man bestfriend without it we will not exist hehehe...... so long my precious USB who ever took you pls takecare of him.. he is brandnew... and pls don't look at the pictures you might get horny hehehe.........

ps usb..Godbless to who ever took you pls watch your head something might fell on you...

posted by: alj099 at 04:34 | link | comments |

Pls give me a reason to exist..

20 years in this world but i haven't found the reason of my exitent... even just a glimpse of it.. i have read the book purpose driven life but still i can found reason why i should exist.. i learned a lot from that book tnx a lot.... but now im starting to picture out that my self indeed is the main problem i can't find a reason why i should exist im to bothered to lazy to stupid to follow what should i do... my life is a mest... i wasted everytime i have to enjoy the time and life given to me by Christ... like what the book said everytime we wasted every second every day.. all of it we can't take it back because it s only given to us once.. no going back what done is done... that day is over.. there is no such thing as a time machine where we can go back from that time of our life... so i think i have just wasted that 20 years for nothing.. i haven't seen my purpose to exist... i live my time wasting every moment very time that i should have change the course of my life.. or my soul purpose to exist in this world is to fill-up the growing list of people that will be burned to hell... pls i wish not... i know someone above will listen..

posted by: alj099 at 04:33 | link | comments |

Dishonesty such a cruel thing..

posted by: alj099 at 04:33 | link | comments |

Heartbreak p2..

Words wouldn’t come out…….

So let’s continue the story I hope who ever read this please don’t be bored.. and if you know me please don’t tell anybody.. Lets keep it a secret…

Eventually every story has there own climax… the right girl probably comes.. but I don’t know if she was the girl I have been looking for… code name “Pakang” she was different totally different.. of all the girl I met she was incomparable she just came to my life and I didn’t know that she will change the course of my life.. because until know her heart still curve into my heart.. like any other woman she was like ordinary.. she was simple but lovable and sweet…. And beautiful of course but not the beauty that will outstand all women.. she was simply beautiful in and out I think…. What made me fall for her first she was sweet… lovable… and she is the only girl that can eat your heart out she never choose her friend if she want to be friend with you she will.. she doesn’t care if you fall for her she will not get out of your side.. she will remain the same.. sweet and lovable.. so that why a lot of us fell for her.. but I think it was a very effective strategy because soon the guy will probably realize that her only intention was to be friend and nothing more so eat your heart out friend are friends for her… but for me I felt different with her I felt the love of a real women a love I never felt before.. it was different every time she grabs me or when she lay her head on my shoulder the hair that touch my skin it was different I felt so free inside and out.. Its like time stop every time she is beside me her smiley face cute lips.. nothing more she was an angel that made my heart fly….. I can never forget the first time she lay her head on my shoulder slowly she grasp my shoulder while the sun was about to sleep.. I can’t say a word it was totally unbelievable.. it was destiny I think.. because back then I never knew her she was a stranger… she just came out of no where… but eventually that stranger stole my heart eternally… from that very moment I knew I found a real heart… but it wasn’t happily ever because it was another game of destiny and I entered a game that probably seal my heart…

When she is with me I can’t say a word.. I felt she was so near but yet my mouth won’t say a word.. why then… why…. Just say the word… but not a single word…….came out of my mouth…….. eventually it was not that easy because EVERYTHING HAS AN EQUIVALENT RATE… and my friend was the barter…. So do you think it was fair to choose one… because if it I would probably choose her but no… I can because friendship was more important for me… so you know what I choose.. so silence remain pain started to curve into my heart I can’t do anything but I can’t barter a friend… it was too late I think high school days was ending we will soon leave and separate our ways… but my heart was to intimate with her.. I tried other woman but she couldn’t be replace.. I couldn’t… day by day opportunity comes… last night to be with her during our farewell party I was alone upstairs she came under a full moon she stare at me she look at the window… I look at her but word wouldn’t come out… I drive to her home.. kilometer away as we drive the road under the moon…. She was at my back but why the HELLLL word won’t come out of my mouth I knew she knew what I felt for her… I don’t know if she was waiting but what if…….. so hell destroy the night my motor cycle has stop so she had to go home through riding a cub and I was left alone… with my left knee bleeding because of the metal that was standing beside the road that scratch and eventually destroyed the night….. so story move on… I never had a chance to tell her.. a thing, life move fast I enter collage with a heart with missing peace… a lot of temptation was there in the new school but she was the only girl I’m thinking of.. The festival came I saw her again then like old times she lay her head on me wrap my shoulder.. we stroll the whole night but my mouth still wouldn’t say a word… so time move so fast I have a chance to meet her sometimes.. but eventually everything has to end.. that night came year after I though I was ready we went out… I was ready but I saw a different woman so far from the girl I met before.. The gap was wider than before…. That night I realize it has to end… you finally found a new way and I haven’t found mine we end-up with two road destiny finally brought as for the final decision end of the road this is it we have to take separate road I tried but I can’t just take the same road anymore…. So everything ends tonight darkness finally came… HeatBreak finally shows... I made a mistake I let the gap grow wide that it finally separate our road… our path… so it means goodbye destiny spoken…… I have to move without you……. You have to…… I knew you knew… but will never knew till our path cross again…. Hope to see you again…

I love u………….. ;-( huhuhuhuhuh……….

posted by: alj099 at 04:32 | link | comments |

HeartBreak.

posted by: alj099 at 04:30 | link | comments |

Good to be back..

Its been a long time that i posted to this blog...
i think because i am still thinking if i have to share to the world who am i..
but know i think i have to.. i have lot of things inside i want to share.. a lot... so soon I'll be posting to you all those story inside my locker.. hope those people will understand what will i write... soon... good to be back finally..

 

all my post is here also..

deeperthanme99.blogspot.com

posted by: alj099 at 04:29 | link | comments |

wow.. it's been a while..

it's been a while since i have writen in this blog.. kinda.. heheh but stories will come soon i have yet decided if my story here continous since it has not been very good.. but hey when it become better i will tell you..

posted by: alj099 at 03:50 | link | comments |

"Goodbye my lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

posted by: alj099 at 03:55 | link | comments (1) |

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